|I don't want to explain my future
||[Nov. 24th, 2008|09:38 am]
My interview for the PhD scholarship is coming this weekend, and that's why I can't pay attention on anything else right now.|
If i pass the interview, the next three years in UK will be totally sponsored by Taiwanese government, which means my parents can save a lot of money. I always want them to spend their money on themselves, go traveling, having a good time.
I already prepare my self-introduction for this interview, but in real life, I just hate explaining to others what I' gonna do in the future. All I can say is I will try to do my best in this moment, but I don't know what's waiting for me in the future.
I still remember one time I was questioned by a business man, who keep asking me " Do you know what kind of person you want to be in the future?" and he mentioned a "great " example, whom was his classmate and become a TV reporter , and he thought that's because she knew what she wanted to do since she was still very young.
Alright, but the truth is, she doesn't only become a TV reporter but also becomes that kind of woman who steal other woman's husband and make them divorce. how funny, maybe she made up her mind to do this from childhood too?
And that business man also keep questioning me :" if you're really an outstanding student just like your father said, why can't you get scholarship? do you know how much money you're going to waste for a PhD?" I hate being questioned just because what I'm going to major is art history. if I am going to get a Phd in science field, no one will question me, and they may respect me with their whole heart.
Fuck, I admit that I'm that kind of person who loves the idea of revenge. the story of 'Le Comte de Monte-Cristo' used to be my favorite.
There was only one reason I try my best to win the scholarship: for my parents, but there's another reason now: to stop the asshole business man humiliating me and my father.
so, wish my good luck for the interview.